I love you but I'm not in love with you

I sat on my bed stunned at the way Cedric had left. Had I done something? Everything was so confusing right now. I need to talk to Hermione but she’s with Ron at the moment.

I sighed and stood up going into the bathroom and taking a shower. I got out and dressed, I went into the kitchen and began fixing me something to eat when I heard a knock on my door, hoping it was Cedric back I ran to the door and opened it. Who else at the door other than, Harry. Just what I need right now. “Come in, Harry.” I left the door open and went back to the kitchen.

Harry followed me in, “What? No kiss hello, love?”

I rolled my eyes, “I told you, Harry. I need time to think.” How the hell do I tell him again that I’m not in love with him anymore? I continued cooking my breakfast burrito feeling his eyes on me. He grabbed my arm and turned me kissing him deep. I just froze, I couldn’t return his kiss this time. There was no desire to.

He finally pulled back his hands still gripping my arms. “What’s going on, Ginny?” I could see the hurt in his eyes.

“I..I..I’m not sure, Harry. I’m just confused on what I want. I don’t feel the same about you like I use to.”

“What do you mean?” He asked as he dropped his hands and taking a step back and looking at me.

“You know what I mean, Harry. You’re trying to move to fast with us. You’ve made me pull back and I’m no longer ‘in love’ with you. I love you as more of a friend now. I’m sorry.”

“You love me but you’re not in love with me? That’s the biggest bunch of bull I have heard, Ginny.” He shook his head. “Don’t worry about it, I won’t bother you anymore.” He turned to leave and my heart dropped.

“Please, Harry. Don’t shut me out completely.”

“I’m sorry, Ginny. I can’t be around you if I can’t be with you.” He dropped his head and started out of my apartment. How can I fix this? I just stood there and watched him leave. There was nothing I could do to make this any easier on him or make it better. Not if he doesn’t want to be friends.

I sighed and turned back to the stove and jumping when I heard the door slam behind me. I finished my burrito and ate it while sitting on the couch wallowing in my sorrow. My confusion was really getting to me. I just want to figure out what it is that I’m feeling for Cedric. The only way I’m going to do that is if I explore these feeling further. I need to sit down and talk to him.

I picked up my cell phone and texted Cedric.